New UnderØath

So i ran into the new UnderØath song from the new album “Lost in the Sound of Separation” and i am completely obsessed.

1. the Lyrics as always blow my mind!

2. Because at the end of the song it has some serious, what i would call, Chug Chug!
I am going to proceed in breaking down this song for you, and how it at least applies in where i stand with my relationship with people/God/myself.

I’ve been crawling around in the dark for a while.
Sprawled out across the floor.
Not collecting dust anymore.
Define me a parasite. Define my host.
I feel like i have been crawling through life in the “muck” is the best way to describe it. Just completely engulfed by all the junk that i either consume or presume. My presumptions of others have hurt my friends, as well as myself, and my consumption whether it be from internet activities or television even girls…they just plague my mind more than they should.

Trapped beneath the floor.
I slowly waste away.
Now I pull my frail body into the chair.
And look me in the face.
Im wasting away in my vein efforts to achieve some minor solitary goal. And as i recuperate from all of my misdemeanors God will be there staring me in the face.

Oh, disappointments, so disappointing.
This may be my last one.
It’s gonna be good and hard.
It might be a touch out of key.
I tell myself things like, this is it, this is it, one last time and im done forever, but i said that 3 times ago and im still falling into the same junk as always. and all the while i can 1. feel God stare at me while im doin this 2. know that in some sick effort to come back to him i will only fall again.

When this thing breaks. I will be you, you will be me.
I’m afraid that this is really happening.
Let’s hope this is short lived and riddled with dizzy
The only comfort i can console myself with is that of this first line, that when i am fully broken, there will be none of me left, and i will be Him (christ), not in the physical sense, but in the John 3:30 way that there will be less of me and more of him. i can only hope that my tests, or trials, or whatever these sins are can be sort lived and completely numbed by the end of this experience.

Oh, God the noise! Is ringing in my ear.
It’s so unclear. I hear them talking.
But can’t make out the words.
The loudness of my sin screams in my ear, but you voice is also there, like that Tide commercial, im trying to hear your words, but all i can hear is the stain on my shirt.

Speak up. Speak clear.
Similar to the “Casting Such a Thin Shadow” song, i cannot seem to hear you Father God. I need you to be louder, but how do you get any louder than you are, i need to tune my ears to your frequency.

God, where have I been.
I’m terrible company. With zero apologies.
I have lost myself to God, to myself, and even to my friends, and i seem to be a terrible human in all three aspects, and i have no sympathy for myself or for what i have done, only because i know i am bound to do it again.

While I sink to the bottom.
I’ll sing out as it fills with water.
I hope I’ve done enough.
All i can ask is at the end of this existence to have something to show for it, that i made progress or furtherment in my relationship, both with Jesus, and with my fellow man, including myself.
(as a side note UnderØath has a history of using water as a sign of destruction, they always seem to be drowning, or suffocating from the pressure of the water.)

I’m worn out.
I’m worn thin.
I will never break through.
Let me out.
something that i fear i will never learn is that when i call on the Lord He will deliver me, from even myself. When i “tap out” so to speak He will deliver me, I feel as though some times i have been worn out by my mistakes, that i will never “break through” and when i admit my dependace upon Him, He will lift me up! And when i scream “LET ME OUT” surely He must hear my plea and release me.

~ by oohryuhh on August 9, 2008.